uhhh Ok here goes nothing, so there's this girl I've been knowing for a lil while now she's from Houston and I have feelings for her {deep feelings}that I just cant seem to shake for many reasons, me and this girl shared many special moments together, I think about ALL the time smh, I've grown to love her through the good times and bad, I can be a total retard around her at any given time, I can just be me, no gimmicks, no games, just me and I think that's what made our relationship so special, you don't meet people you can be yourself around everyday, well i don't...... It was just crazy how we bonded together. She had a smile that brighten up the room, personality some girls would wish for and a sense of style/fashion that only your everyday kinda girl would only dream about. But this my friend isn't your everyday kinda girl, she cooked and cleaned & made love at the drop of a dime, watched sports(and understood them) knew how to have fun and have a good time, smart, went to church, had goals and ambition and a body that would make you slap yo moma lol she really is one of H Town's Finest TRUE STORY!!!!!!....She had some flaws about her, but who doesn't she had the attitude like a Head Coach of a football team and wouldn't hesitate to snap on anyone who crossed her wrong, and honestly it kinda turned me on ha ha, she had a horrible attitude and horrible is a nice way to put it, but other than that .....What man wouldn't want that?? sounds like wifey material right??...sounds too good to be true right, but it wasn't sad to say,but I may have let a good.......... naw fuck that a GREAT one get away, I wasn't ready to give her what she wanted and needed, I was still playing and being a little boy smh. I had what I got down one my knees and prayed about to God every night for right in my face and didn't realize it. I hope its not too late to make things right with this special lady even though we have tried time and time again I'm maturing and trying to be a man as they like to call it. I just hope to God she doesn't find someone to replace yours truly, but if she does I'll be happy for her and the fella that did what I couldn't do back then. I made a lot of stupid choices and decisions that I gotta live with. She taught me a lot about myself and life, she set the bar that I don't see any female coming close to. I hate this feeling not being able to have what I want, its like going in the store and seeing some shoes you want and not being able to get em for whatever reason its sucks and I hate it. I haven't heard from her in awhile I hope she's out somewhere thinking bout me the way I be thinking bout her...#Shoutout to that special lady that still holds my heart{she know who she is}......
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