I FUCKING HATE LOVE!!!!!

I posted this before, but this post is soo real and authentic to what I'm feeling now I just had to re-post it again. Me being a 21 year old young man and having ups and downs in former relationship(s), I hate to say it but I really don't know what Love is..... I mean yea I thought it was having feelings and sharing thoughts and a bond with that special someone and caring for them, being there for them when they need you, sharing your body with them physically and emotionally, but I've come to realize it's much more then that...what is it exactly?? I don't fucking know lol, I'm still trying to figure out what exactly love is, some people don't really find there true soul-mate until late 40's. I hope it doesn't take me that long to find love. I guess growing up under my mothers house and watching my parents go through a divorce at a young age is what cause me to be this semi-emotional type-a-nigga that even cares about love. I watched my parents go through a lot, and I hate to say it but I don't wanna be alone, but shidd who does?? get my drift..??..but anywho here's the post I was talking bout

to be cont....Buddy

Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so no one can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life.... You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like 'maybe we should just be friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the mind. It's a soul hurt, a body hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

and dats real....